feedback on the girls night

ja- whatever. i went strong till all of 22h00 and was asleep in bed by 23h15- sober.
the girls continued without me, but holding my eyes open with toothpicks was ruining my outfit.

i keep forgetting that i am not that girl from a year and 3 months ago. i can put myself in the same bar, eat the same things and drink decent rum, but its not going to change the fact that i am a mommy and a wifey now and that my priorities have changed.
i still have a potty mouth and i still talk about sex and i still get to make my friends laugh, but i have to try a lot harder now because all i want to really do is talk about ben. sad hey?
also, because i am not in the loop anymore (facebook isnt much help these days) i am still talking about so and so who broke up LAST year and DID YOU SEE WHAT WHATS-HER-FACE WAS WEARING????eish. and its all totally outdated and BORING.

BUT i LOVE my friends, i love what they mean to me- i just have to redefine our friendships because they play different roles in my life now. how the BEEP do i do that though? none of them have kiddie winks and i see them less and less and i am scared that soon, too soon, i might not see them at all. at least the prospect of my big fat wedding is keeping them around!!! haha.

i am going to introduce my friends to my blog real soon. i just have to find appropriate pics of them.......(havent changed completely!!!!!!)

weekend here i come

my first email of the morning-07.45- went something like this:

PHUZAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THURSDAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!
yikes.
what the hell did i get myself into?

so its thursday again, which means tomorrow is friday and then its weekend and then next week and i swear i just cant keep up.
i have a list for the rest of the year- things that need to be done and that i am doing and that i am looking forward to doing....as you will notice, these might sound similar, but these sub headings are vastly different.
for example, things that i am looking forward to doing:
25th birthday
saschas wedding
mauritus
bachelorette (mine)
teaching ben new things
watching ben walk
wedding
etc

then, things that NEED to be done:
look for and FIND half day/stay at home type job
PLAN entire wedding
stand in queue at home affairs for bens passport

and i will stop there. one thing i have done is find a maid, that was on the list of things that NEED to be done.
in fact- she is a maid i had about 4 years ago. i swore that one day when i had a kid, she would work for me. and here she is. baby steps though, twice a week. right now she is marching around my house telling me that i need to get proper cleaning stuff. i have suggested she come with me to the shops. HRMMMPHHHHH. is all i get. i swear she should be in the military or maybe run for president- she at least has a backbone and a matric.

anyway, things i am currently doing:
shoving handfuls of caramelised almonds into my mouth
watching ben attack the cat- he keeps rolling on her- so far its 11-1 to ben.
planning my outfit for tonight

peace out

i spend so much time on my own these days and my little head is in constant think mode. i have conversations with myself all day long and by the time i see people, my little tongue goes into 7th gear and machine guns through a conversation so fast that it leaves me and the person i am speaking to utterly and completely dumbfounded and exhausted.

dumbfound- to greatly astonish someone
bullshit. i dont greatly astonish anyone. i blow their minds away with the amount of information i manage to store on a daily basis and then incoherently word vomit out into the palms of their hands.

hence i am taking a day or two off a week to spend with other people- like my friends or even a car guard. i think paul and ben also need a break from the manic mother. thank god for blogging, if i am talking too much, you can always close the page and take a breather whereas if you were infront of me, you'd ask for a drink. a stiff one.
thank god for commas and full stops.

does anyone watch true blood? i PVR it and then glue myself to the tv screen straight after i put ben down to sleep in the morning. its a mind fuck. who came up with the....what do you call the part that they slip in straight after the first few seconds and before the first 5 minute long tv break? well, the opening bit, what ever its called, is fucking ridiculous. its so middle america, it reminds me a bit of edgemead- no offence dear readers.

anyway, i think i might have had a caffeinated coffee instead of my usual decaf.

phuza thursday

i should be in bed. sleeping. while i can.

instead my mind is racing, my palms are sweaty and my heart is pumping vast amounts of blood through my veins. i think i might even have an asthma attack soon.

it feels like years since i last had this feeling.

I AM GOING OUT ON A GIRLS NIGHT.

the mere mortal could never begin to understand how i feel right now. only a mother can.

a night out, a phuza thursday night out nogal.

jislaaik. ek kry sommer lekker as ek daaroor dink. imagine net- cuba libres, chilli poppers, hysterical banter amongst hysterical girls getting more worked up by the rum fuelled second.

we'll skinner, we'll talk about sex, we'll dance on tables, we'll throw name.....it sounds like bliss.

ah, and we'll wear high heels, wash and brush our hair, maybe throw on some mascara.

i have already placed the order for some myprodols....

our last girls night looked something like this........

and then this was just before then.....

clearly it might not get this raucous, i am a mother now afterall..........but none the less, come thursday, i am donning my heels, a LBD and some matching underwear (that might be pushing it, but you get my drift)

rewind

i was born on the 8th of june 1984 in cape town
i attended various schools- usually the ones that would have me.
my parents piled myself and my siblings into the ugliest old jetta EVER and dragged our asses to JHB when i was 13 years old, after a short stint in the old smoke, i packed my bags, R150 and jumped on a plane back to cape town where i have been ever since.
last year, i met the man i planned on spending the rest of my life with- he wasnt so sure about me though- being my boss and all- but this girl always gets what she wants. after a whirlwind 4.5months of romance and far too many drunken nights, i fell pregnant.....and so ben arrived one wednesday after my water suddenly broke in the middle of the night- the little guy has been early at everything since.
i am now a stay at home mom, rearing my little over achiever into something of a prodigy.
in a few months time, i will be walking down the aisle to become Mrs Osborne.....
ah, life is great. wine is plentiful and the view is beautiful

pick me pick me

i spend half my life writing blogs in my head, in fact, i spend half my life thinking about writing blogs inside my head. the only reason i dont actually just get straight to writing and blogging is due to the fact that i have a 5month 8day old son- benjamin (see pic)-that doesnt really explain much, but basically, i am so damn busy these days that i actually dont have that much time to myself....

that was last week though and this week i have decided on a new weeks resolution- lets hope its doesnt last as long as my news years resolution- i am going to blog. yip. that's it folks. and i need you all to read it. (motivation, inspiration etc- i figure if someone reads this, i might write more than just some arb drivel)

none the less, my name is tara. i am about to become mrs osborne, mother to ben and wife to paul.....