so obvious

i had a chat to my mom this morning and although i usually tend to ignore my parents advice, my mom was actually so spot on that i couldnt.
we were chatting about the wedding and i told her how paul and i nearly killed eachother the other day. she asked what it was about and i told her that he feels he should be doing the bar, but when we talk about how the bar should be done, our views differ so dramatically that i fear for our marriage should he fuck it up. (the venue doesnt have a liquor licence so we bring in our own bar and own liquor and staff etc)
so she said, just let him do the bar.
silence
mom, you are a genius.

so of course thats the answer, just let him do it. its the second most important thing on the day, its his only task and if he is clever he will stop being so stubborn and get someone to do it for him. simple.
if he fucks it up, we will just have to have the marriage anulled.
but he wont. he cant.

so now i feel better and to some it might sound silly, but if we are blowing 120k on one day of our lives, best it be the most perfect day ever. its gone beyond us exchanging vows, its this huge shindig now with over 140 people. its going to have to rock!

i am off to breakfast and a bit of a gossip session with a good friend of mine.
i wish wine was included with breakfast. or vodka.

monday....

its monday
i know you all know that
i just thought i would spell it out
ben is a genius. he has started pulling himself into standing position....i try to explain to him that he needs a plan from there on out, but he is quite happy just standing in his cot....the floor is littered with huge soft pillows should he decide to have a plan and take a leap. its not that we havent dropped the cot already, we have- twice- but he still finds his way up.
brat.

so, i need to talk about this wedding planning stuff- its driving me nuts.
i nearly postponed the wedding due to paul and i trying to kill each other over it. since when are men so involved in wedding planning. pssshhh.
and he is stubborn. by god the man is a mule. i am no better. so its two dumb heads against eachother and neither plan on backing down.
crap.
its really crap

i did events for a living way back when- ok i didnt do a wedding, but i dont just see a picture, i see every single detail and he just sees the picture......anyway, i love him very much, but he really is a brat. wonder where ben gets it from.

anyway, the wedding planning continues, T minus 208 days to wedding lift off and all i have done is book a venue....genius.

also, i need a stay at home mom day job.....but i just dont know what......
oh, i love mondays

blah.....

so in between looking after ben and paul- they both have the flu- paul being the bigger baby than ben- and being a domestic goddess and organising our lives and being a mommy (which in its own right is a mammoth task) i am also planning a wedding. our wedding.
from 50 people to 150 people, i am taking on an event that might just not happen as its getting hugely out of hand....i mean, it WILL happen of course. it might just happen without anyone knowing about it.
aside from the fact that i cant decide on any kind of wedding dress, i have no one in cape town that is really interested in planning a wedding with me...which sucks as its meant to be the most important day of my life....
ok, so i am feeling slightly sorry for myself and i can, because i can (lacking a good enough reason as you can tell)

other than that, i was let down by a really important friend today and fine, i know she isnt the best at keeping a schedule when it comes to friends, but i really needed her today, i needed to get out of the house and see someone that could talk shit and drink wine with me and make me laugh and she dropped me....badly.
there is such a fine line on this one, do i tell her that i would like to wring her neck and be the kind of nagging friend that i am NOT or do i leave it and let it eat at me for a while?

oh and then, tomorrow is my first mothers day- which is the good news.
its quite a thing actually, my first mothers day....who would have thought?
wow.
just having a moment, letting it sink in
nope, not sinking in
my little man is quite the cutest little man in the world right now and even though he isnt quite big enough to fry up some bacon and eggs, he definitely is the best reason to get out of bed every morning, he is the one person that has taught me unconditional love and he loves me even if i am pmsing (TMI)
so, ben, thank you for making me the happiest mommy every day- especially on mothers day

over and out.....